I’ve never hated my life before

I’ve never hated my life before.

I had an amazing family.

I still do.

I had an amazing circle of friends.

I still do.

I had an amazing life.

That, I can’t say I still do, though.

I’ve never hated my life before.

Until someone died and made you king.

And you thought you could just trample all over me.

I’ve never hated my life before.

But you had me cornered.

I am stuck.

I have nowhere else to go.

I am pinned to the wall by your cruel, cunning discrimination of me.

The only way out is down.

I’ve never hated my life before.

I never understood what others meant when they said, ‘FML’.

They look like initials for a sports league, if you asked me.

But now I know.

And even though I am still able to control myself from cursing my own life,

It doesn’t mean I am not hurting.

I’ve never hated my life before.

I know I have every right to be angry.

About what you’re putting me through.

About the vicious insinuations of my weaknesses that you throw my way.

About you ruining me right before the eyes of my family.

I’ve never hated any part of my life before.

But now I do.

Especially that part with you in it.

Three things I learnt from my few years as a financial consultant

1. LIFE IS SHORT: The total premium paid on one’s life insurance is never more or equivalent to their total sum insured upon their life at the time of claim.

2. DEATH IS INEVITABLE: It can happen anytime, anywhere, anyhow.

3. The song: ‘Na si wa oo chik pak ban’ (If I had a million bucks)…