Then John’s disciples came and asked him, “How is it that we and the Pharisees fast often, but your disciples do not fast?” Matthew 9:14
For many years, I was often guilt-striken whenever I read this verse. The reason being – I couldn’t fast because I was pregnant… like, for most of my married life. Out of the 100 months I’ve been married, I’ve had so many reasons not to fast:
- 55 months of pregnancy (including the time I had my miscarriage)
- 5 months of confinement
- 32 months of breastfeeding
- And of course, during my monthly period
All of the above were probably just excuses not to abstain from meat because I’m a meat fanatic, especially when it comes to pork! I cook pork almost every day. The only time there’s chicken in the house is when I cook chicken curry or when we tapau (take-away). Even my version of a shepherd’s pie is a porky one.
So this year, I decided that I should start to take fasting and abstinence seriously. And what better time to start than Lent? My Fridays are now kolo mee kosong, and I try to fast at least one meal. It could be good for me to do some self-denial sometimes and replace my self-indulgence with a little prayer or lending a helping hand (or ear) instead.
So my New Year’s or birthday resolution has not really been finalised. I might still think about some other things I’d like to do for WORLD PEACE any time before this year ends.